today is sat.... the day after or rather hours after i realise. .... i cant go NZ.... at least that was what they meant!

i mean.... hmm it's not a choice i come to realise... though everybody ends the conversation with things like if u reali etcetc then go.... u go think and decide if u wan to go........ sounds so much like it's sitll my decision rite....

but it's wrong..... they know me plain well that i will not go.... thou i so feel like just changing who i am and just go do wat i wan for once!! since they know they are actually just saying dun go..

where's the choice? hmm pls dun tell me i am given a choice.. u might as well just tell me i can't go...

so now mel holds on to a faint hope that she stil can go like if they change their mind.. but i guess not... so we'll just see how..

yawns so tired now.... had to wake up early cos!! cos why!! cos 930-11am no water... and since i already awake quick go bath and get some breakfast...

oo i see dear sammie waking up =) i'm impressed she wakes up so early when slping so late... i thnk me slept real little yest too! i thikn i even dreamt of me stil finding tic for NZ ahah so funny....
oh well thank u to those .. haha basically lionel who was updated on every little detail last nite until i just gave up and din wan to tok to anyone.... oh but i think he missed out when my sis called haha...
oh and sammie thanks for ur tissue... haha that my dear went to add toilet roll in cos still not enuff...

oh well hmm oo my com is free of virus i think! my dear manage to del the file that had the virus using ms dos! yippee!
lalalalla dunno wat to say liao....

mel's still sad i guess but trying not to erm think about it ... haha later stil got one last lecture.... raoz...sch on sat!
so anyway whoever's reading this... if i'm seem alrite then maybe i alright liao... if i dun tok much hehe maybe i just in the quiet mood ..... alallal i dunno ahha... not making sense...

kk..... goodbye all.... mel is a little dot on her bed... . (can u see me??? hee i think not =p) ok i think i'm not making any sense.... gosh....



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